Monthly Archives: October 2007

My First Love

I woke up with a start. I was crying. May be I was hungry. I didn’t know where I was. No one came to comfort me. I turned and tossed on the bed. As I turned to my left, I saw her. There she was, the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. She was fast asleep, her right thumb in her mouth. I knew then that I was looking at my first love. I was in a hospital. I was born just yesterday.

Just then my mother came in, took me into her arms and nursed me. I was denied the view of my first love. I cried. I cried harder. I wasn’t hungry anymore. I wanted to look at my first love.

I saw concern on my mother’s face. She thought I was sick. She was right. I was sick. I was sick at heart. The doctor was called. The doctor came in. He took my temperature. He checked my blood pressure. He could not find anything wrong with me. If only he could look at the place where I was hurt most.

I was placed on my bed. Placed on the bed facing my love. I was happy. I stopped crying. I heard a sigh of relief from my mother. The doctor went away shaking his head. I was then left at peace. I looked at my love. Without batting an eyelid. There she was. A thing of beauty. Still sleeping peacefully. With her right thumb in her mouth.

“Wake up. Wake up and look at me”, I thought. I could only think. I was not supposed to talk. Remember, I was just one day old. But there she was. A sleeping beauty. A sleeping beauty not older than myself. Could she have a name?? Do I have a name myself?? Do one-day-olds have names?? I kept looking at her. Willing her to wake up. She did not. Instead, sleep nursed me and my heavy heart. I dreamt. I dreamt about her.

I woke up. I turned to my left. I looked. The bed next to mine was empty. My sleeping beauty was gone. My first love!! My first love was gone when I was sleeping. When I was sleeping and dreaming about her. Did she atleast see me before leaving?? Was she aware of my existence?? My existence and my love for her?? I felt sad. I felt lonely. All alone and with so many unanwsered questions. With so many unanwsered questions and a heavy heart.

I cried. My mother came in. She took me in her arms and fed me. I cried harder. The doctor was called. The doctor came in. He prepared to take my temperature. I wailed. I wailed my broken heart out. Thus ended my first love.


Configuring Debian Etch on Acer Aspire 4710Z

Hardware Specs of the Laptop

  • Intel Pentium dual-core processor T2080 (1.73 GHz, 533 MHz FSB, 1 MB L2 Cache)
  • 14.1” WXGA Acer CrystalBrite LCD
  • Mobile Intel Graphics Media Accelerator
  • 1 GB DDR (Upgraded from 512MB)
  • DVD-Super Multi DL
  • 802.11b/g WLAN
  • Bluetooth 2.0+EDR

I installed Debian etch which comes with the kernel 2.6.18-4-686

Graphics and sound worked with the installation. Wireless and the Acer Crystal Webcam needed too be configured.


Doing an lspci shows that the Acer Aspire 4710Z comes with a “Broadcom Corporation Dell Wireless 1390 WLAN Mini-PCI Card (rev 01)” wireless card. I had the two choice of configuring the wireless, a) Using a windows driver and ndiswrapper and b) Using the bcm43xx driver that comes with the kernel versoin 2.6.18 and above and the bcm43xx firmware. I went for the ndiswrapper solution but later on I configured the wireless with the other option as well with a never kernel version. But first the ndiswrapper configuration:

1. Install ndiswrapper:

  • sudo aptitude install ndiswrapper ndiswrapper-utils-1.9 wireless-tools
  • sudo aptitude install ndiswrapper-source module-assistant
  • sudo m-a prepare
  • sudo m-a a-i ndiswrapper
  • This compiles and installs ndiswrapper as a module in the kernel. To load ndiswrapper module: sudo modprobe ndiswrapper

2. Downloaded the windows wireless driver from the Dell site to a temprorary directory:

  • wget <url>

3. The exe file downloaded was a self extracting file. Unzip it with unzip:

  • unzip R115321.EXE

4. This unzips a lot of file in the working directory. The .inf file that we need is in the location DRIVER/bcmwl5.inf

5. Install the windows driver:

  • sudo ndiswrapper -i DRIVER/bcmwl5.inf

6. See if the installation went successfully:

ndiswrapper -l

The output should be something like this:

bcmwl5 driver installed, hardware (14E4:4324) present

7. Lastly, add “ndiswrapper” (without the quotes) in /etc/modules.

8. Do a iwconfig to see if there now is a interface with wireless extension. On my laptop the interface shows as wlan0

Later on I upgraded my kernel to 2.6.21-2-686 from Debian testing (Lenny) and I decided to configure wireless using the bcm43xx driver which works well with the new kernel:

  • Update /etc/apt/sources.list to point to Debian testing by adding the following line:

deb testing main

  • Install the new kernel:

sudo aptitude update && aptitude install linux-image-2.6.21-2-686

  • Install bcm43xx-fwcutter which is needed to extract the firmware:

sudo aptitude install bcm43xx-fwcutter

  • Download the zip file that has the file from which we can get the firmware and unzip it:


unzip (From this we get a file named bcmwl5.sys)


  • Extract the firmware from the sys file:

sudo bcm43xx-fwcutter -w /lib/firmware/ bcmwl5.sys

All the firmware file gets extracted to /lib/firmware/

  • Copy the firmware files (*.fw) to /lib/hotplug/firmware/ also:

sudo cp /lib/firmware/*.fw /lib/hotplug/firmware — Not sure whether this is needed or not …

  • modprobe bcm43xx and reboot the machine.



Acer Crystal Webcam
To configure the WebCam, we need the module uvcvideo

1. Install linux-uvc:


  • sudo aptitude install linux-uvc
  • sudo m-a auto-install linux-uvc
  • sudo modprobe uvcvideo

2. We need Video4Linux version 2 to make the webcam work:


  • sudo aptitude install libpt-plugins-v4l2

After the above configuration, the webcam works with ekiga but I could not get it to work with camorama and other webcam applications.



The bluetooth was auto detected. Just needed to install the package bluetooth.

To My Friends

To My Friends Who Are…………

Love is not about “it’s your fault”,
but “I’m sorry”, not “where are you’
but “I’m right here”, not “how could you”
but “I understand”, not “I wish you were”,
but “I’m thankful you are.”

To My Friends Who Are…………

The true measure of compatibility is not the years
spent together but how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are…………

Love isn’t about becoming somebody else’s
“perfect person.”
It’s about finding someone who helps you become
the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are…………

Heartbreaks last as long as you want
and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks
but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are…………

How to be in love: Fall but don’t stumble,
be consistent but not too persistent,
share and never be unfair,
understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are…………

True love cannot be found where it does not
truly exist, nor can it be hidden where
it truly does.
Love is magic. The more we hide it, the more it
shows; the more you suppress it,
the more it grows.

To My Friends Who Are…………

Never say I love if you don’t care.
Never talk about feelings if they aren’t there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Never look in the eye when what you do is lie.
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to
let her fall in love when he doesn’t intend
to catch her fall.

To My Friends Who Are…………

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy
with someone else but it’s more painful to
know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are…………

Love hurts when you break up with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person you love
has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are…………

A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone
who means a lot to you, only to find out in
the end that it was never bound to be
and we just have to let go.

To My Friends Who Are…………

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it,
the more it eludes you. But if you just
let it fly, it would come to you when
you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love’s only special when you give it to
someone who is worth it.
So take your time and choose the best.

The shortest distance between a problem
and a solution is the distance between
your knees and the floor in prayer.

(Note: I found this article on someone else’s blog)

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